“Rejection feels personal”

it’s the rejection of your ‘selection’ that hurts more.


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Dorothy,If you don’t believe your struggles no one else will….live ‘inwardly’ 


Meaning, trying to convince others  is a ‘outward’ move. Being peace with yourself and not trying explaining yourself too much to others is living inwardly. By the way, what do you want from Simon? 

I want him to go away..

Three Balancer,not the real point!

“Its weird how the word ‘Balance’ unassumingly implies ‘two things/two participating ingredients’! I was trying to draw a Beam Balance that could ‘balance’ three ingredients instead of two.How would it look like??

Why was I trying to draw the Three Balancer?(Yeah i have made my mind to call it that, final) It all happened because I had to find a picture for this thought:-

an ideal career is a balance of three ingredients: boredom,anxiety and your capability to handle the shit’!

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Fig : Three Balancer (I could have written it as A B C but B A C is just there to tickle OCD!

Note to self; Picture might worth 1000 words but at times coming up with the right picture could be a real pain in back..makes me wonder if all the K words have a corresponding picture…or this one- on – one relation is just a wishful thinking..”

Swing Kit for Matasya Kumari

” you know, i m not that creative especially with these household stuff..

no no Don’t worry at all, I have seen many of my friends do this, very simple, simple like anything

you mean nothing

yeah yeah simple it is.All instructions are there in wiki and youtube, you just assemble it this Sunday.But(hesitatingly) this for Matsy?

yes, its for her, why do you ask?

i mean, i like the color and all but i think she might not be ‘comfortable’ using it..

why do you say that?are you suggesting that she is different than anyone of us?

no no no!she is talented kid, just that after some age it is difficult to learn new skills..but Matsy beta can learn anything with her hardworking, right?”









Semicolon Bracket close.

“i want you to share your honest views..and criticisms.. and things that i can improve..”

more often than not, its a statement in  disguise..what it actually means is ://as a human i have been taught to be modest..I actually need you to support me unconditionally and like a kind parent ignore the mistakes, overlook the flaws and reaffirm me that what i made is good, that my creation reflects ingenuity, it has the shiny head of  my hard work and that it has a fair chance of surviving in the world that preys and ruthlessly digs its claws in a new born idea..I want you to reassure me that my creation will live..will see the sun and will smile and thrive…please say that to me//

“be as honest as you can”

//Don’t be honest, be hopeful instead//

“your stricture will help me improve”

//no it won’t.It will kill my passion and send me back to the the idea graveyard,i struggled so hard to get out from//

—So why don’t you say it?

coz i m… modest? coz i want you to guess it, read it between my lines, figure it out from my eyes..

—Okay..Here.Take this,next time you want me to be “critical” about your work..after the request just attach the ‘semicolon bracket close’..i will meet you in MothEr mode.Hugs.FullSizeRender 32





restroom traveller..

“..and you were concerned that there wouldn’t be any washrooms?

Yeah I need toilets Doc:-frequent pee-er,you see.

and that’s one of the reasons why you gave up on being a world traveller?


can you tell me an incident where you went out for a wonderful vacation and it was all ruined because you couldn’t find a toilet?

ahhh..amm..not exactly, as i try to retrieve the memory from the mind-box labeled “Srikona Vacations” all i can get back is the sunny brass colored old houses and some yellow trees..ahh..WAIT!!!!, there’s also a side note called “f-e-eling..p-e-ace…FEELING PEACEFUL”..huh!..but nothing else..

no mentions about full-bladders?

(amazed) No! wowhatt does that mean?

it means that we go for a vacation thinking that it will relax us instantly..that it will wash away the city-life and fill us with serenity..

it doesn’t?

it does!but Nature takes time to work..your vacation is filled with random mundane details, exhaustion and discomforts of travel and your brain works overtime to protect you from being dehydrated, lost, even taken advantage of by thugs…vacation never brings you instant peace..vacation needs to marinate a little.When you come back home from all those hassles of traveling, eating non home made food, military strict sleep and check out cycles and with those clear pictures and live videos of the place taken by your brain.. it pickles it for a skilled editor takes off all the murky details of food, hangovers, shoes bites, over charging cabbies..and public toilets or lack there of…it takes them all off, and leaves behind a picture perfect, frame worthy “memory of your vacation”.. this pure concentrate of memory is what fuels you, relaxes you not just for a day but for years and years to come!

thank you Doc that helps a lot..ahh is there a restroom in here?”

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